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A Bearded Moment

// March 9th, 2010 // No Comments » // Life Happens, Points In Time

Every man, no matter what age, wants to at one time or another grow a beard.

Andy Ciordia, bearded and reflective

Then one day they try it and your genetics show through. Patchwork to needles, lay flat or go bushman, only the code knows. While I had a brush with some extended chops and a jowel line a few times in the past 20 years I can’t recall ever just seeing who I was with a beard.

This year in the Carolina’s it’s been much colder than usual and my skin hates dry cold—and being a skydiver hey, let’s face it (heh), some added protection on the way down sounded like a good call. Well that’s the way I’m going to remember it.

As with anything new it created more growth than that on my face. You learn something about how you see yourself, how others see you, and by the way—you can stroke it. New sensory too.

Times are quickly changing. Maybe this has been a bridge for me. As I soon pair back what I let grow I will be left with a memory of visages of who I can be, pondering the different embodiments that I can take.

Life is Uncertain, Make the Most of It

// August 17th, 2009 // 1 Comment » // Life Happens, Points In Time

“There are two ways to live: you can live as if nothing is a miracle; you can live as if everything is a miracle.”

—Albert Einstein

The longer I walk forward the more I understand it’s not about the destination. This is something that you are supposed to learn as a child. We’re always reminded to ‘Stop and Smell the Roses’, but we rarely internalize it.

The Old Guard

I think it began with the idea set forth that we find work, we do good work, we have work forever, and then at the end of our work we have retirement. Well we all know that’s idea is pretty much ashes these days. I always thought that I had to get to ‘X’, whether it was a great company or financial success, and I just had to get to that place and then life could begin.

Sacrifice the short for the long.

How wrong I was.

As a youth we’re all foolish. It’s not our faults, our brains they say take a lot longer to develop and that’s why we have a long adolescence. We have to accumulate wisdom and watch the passing of time in the human experience. Our minds unfettered would run faster and farther than most of what our flesh limits us to and it takes us a while to realize that.

Getting lost in a future thought is very easy to do. It’s one many of us get trapped in. All around us are those stuck in the rat or survival race. Everyone always looking at the prize but compulsory glance or with disdain at the journey itself.

Today

So what about today, the now, the moment? Why do we put off tomorrow what we can enjoy today. A hug, a kiss, a moment in the grass, or for me a leap out of an airplane.

It’s all relative but it’s all about the now.

All my life I wanted to work hard so that when it came to rearing children and enjoying what I could consider as my prime years I would be set for it. Life doesn’t work that way, not unless you were gifted/blessed/networked by some circumstances that allowed for early fortune.

It’s ok though. There is nothing wrong with prioritizing for today. Today you can find happiness in an event. You can taste victory even in cleaning up a room of a home.

Relish in it.

Shooting for the Moon, Lands You in the Stars

This doesn’t mean that you obliterate tomorrow for today, but you don’t have to build great structures in the clouds that may never come to fruition. Give yourself goals, fantastic goals, and if you come up short at least you made the effort to try for greatness. Recalibrate, cast out new goals, and strike out again, today, every day.

Enjoy the successes of today!

Your Mind and Your Life, Fighting Irrationality

// February 13th, 2008 // Comments Off // Excursions, Life Happens

Underwater Goofing Off

I love to experience life and the world. To many it looks like I am defiant or full of challenge but really it is a zest for the experience. Maybe I have some kinesthesia issues. Recently during a scuba trip on Grand Cayman I was to find myself in a position I have rarely, if ever, found myself in. Near panic.

When you are a child, or young adult, being locked in a dark place is probably the closet to panic you get. The overwhelming fear of the unknown, a confined space, darkness, can usually evoke a pretty good shriek from many people whereupon you are released by teasing siblings or friends from your torment.

In scuba diving many people cannot do it. Whether it’s the water, a bunch of gear on you, breathing apparatus, or something more simple many people I speak with do not have what it takes to submerge themselves.

Being a Floridian I’ve always loved the water. My mother affectionately called me part fish for my comfort and never ending joy I found in pools or the sea. I started diving in 1992 at Seacamp. While I have more skydives than water dives I have always considered diving like riding a bicycle. Once I learned it’s all fairly rote in my memory. Gear assembly and testing, signs, the only thing I have to reference is my dive tables.

Heading to Cayman this year I found myself with a sinus headcold. For the first two days on island I thought my eyes would never stop tearing due to the unwanted pressure in my head. We scrubbed a few dive days to allow this to work itself out. During which time my wife and I took to snorkeling and free diving. Free diving allowed me to test what parts of my head were clogged and not by having to equalize multiple times and varying depths.

On the third day my head felt clear with minimal if any pressure build ups. We decided to make a comfortable dive at [Eden Rock](http://www.edenrockdive.com/). Robin and I were buddies following my father and step-mother down to Devil’s Grotto (a series of little tunnels and such). Like normal I felt comfortable, breathing was zen like, everything felt good. Robin and I stayed down about 55 minutes in total.

We then went to lunch at the [Sunset House](http://www.sunsethouse.com/), calculating our surface interval we prepared for another dive. I wanted to see the Mermaid again and my new dive buddy Beth and I were going to visit the wall at about 60ft. We swam out to our marker with family, submerged, and slowly found our way to the Mermaid standing tall in waters clear to about 50-60ft. Taking pictures of my dad being a hooligan we turned and began to make our way to a sunken deployment craft.

Rick Ciordia touching a mermaid

We descended further and I began to swallow what I was thinking was salt water. I began to think there was a light leak in my mask and somehow during breathing I was inhaling water. Diversionary thoughts began to enter my head as this sensation increased over the next few minutes. My mind was starting to echo really stupid thoughts of, ‘Sure would suck to have to emergency ascend’, or ‘How do I breathe again?’. Slowly but surely my mind began to get on a tear as this fluid—drinking—sensation built. My heart began a sympathetic response and began to race.

With Beth in the lead and my father next to me I motioned that I needed to stop. I was starting to hyperventilate at about 45ft and my logical mind could not for the life of it get my emotional self under control. I knew I could breath, I knew the life line of tubes connecting me to my can of air was worthy so I sank to my knees, motioned unease and held my mask and my mouthpiece. I know stupid things happen in the moment so I just sat there with my eyes closed, letting the sine wave of panic pass through me. I motioned that my heart was racing but how it was perceived I can only guess. I was blowing so many bubbles I went from 2400psi to 1700psi in moments.

We split the group up, Beth to go with my step mother Page and I would return to shallower waters to exit with my father. We turned and parted ways. A few minutes later my heart stabilized, the fluid in my throat stopped running, and my logical self retook control of my senses. I communicated with my father and we tooled around for a few minutes more then exited for what would be a short 27m dive.

When I took my mask off I found out I had a nose bleed, my medical father thinks I had sinus rupture and I was swallowing the drainage / blood from the blow out. What an amazing and frightening experience.

When you find yourself in an alien environment, or maybe just out of your situational comfort zone, and your body begins to abreact at something it can’t internalize properly it feeds your emotional mind a lot of dark fodder. The more I try to be my rational, logical, normal self, the more tenuous the feeling of actual control is when a situation is spinning out of your control.

The best thing one can do is stop and hold on. We are a thermodynamic device so inputs will be cyclical and responsive to what is happening. If you can ride out the wave you will probably see yourself safely through to the end but going all out emotional, or reptillian mind, will only cause you harm. Can you imagine if I had bolted to the surface? I would have put myself from a bad situation to worse in heartbeats.

The next best thing you need to do is extract yourself from the situation. Once I regained some function of mind the safest thing for all of us was to abort the dive. With clear instructions and good buddies I was able to make my way back to safer waters and further regain my faculties and composure. Am I disappointed I didn’t get to see the wall this time? Sure. Am I forever happy to have my health and know I can dive another day? Undoubtedly.

The older I get the more I understand that sometimes we have very little control of ourselves. When the amplitude of panic rises you have to be ready to react in safe manners. Whether it’s deploying a canopy, diving the seas, or driving the highway, you have to be ready for any situation and be ready to try and handle it, or escape from it, like a pro.

Here’s to a safe return and a new story to tell.

-a

Farewell Poppy

// January 10th, 2008 // 5 Comments » // Life Happens

The Love of Food, 1941

On Sunday, January 6th, 2008 my grandfather, Honorico “Ric” Ciordia, known to many of us as Pop or Poppy, passed away. My grandfather was someone very special and dear to me. He had the perfect set of grandfatherly ways. He lifted me up in times of doubt and set me back on the path when it looked like I had wandered a bit too far. His beautiful mix between giving and discipline, listening and action, teaching and watching, was well played and beautiful.

My earliest memories of my grandfather are surrounded by lemon gumdrops. Riding with him in his old cadillac with a secret stash of the sweet and sour treats buried in the center console. He paced me on them but he seemed to always have them. Something about his consistency with this really made an impact on me.

Then came the [Georgia Bulldogs](http://www.georgiadogs.com/). Good ol’UGA. While he went and graduated from the University of Tennessee he had a real team spirit for Georgia. My grandfather and father deeply indoctrinated us into Georgia football. We knew all the fight songs, tales, went through their good streaks and bad. Those times were marvelous and until you experience large scale college football, the communion it provides you won’t quite understand it. Unfortunately UGA didn’t want me so my football spirit waned over the years.

As soon as I was able to reach his bar (which I now use for my elixir, espresso) he taught me how to make the perfect Scotch and water. No matter the time of day, no matter how many had come before Pop would ring out his drinking catch-phrase, “First to day!” followed by “Salud!”. From his home garden he raised his own grapes (among many other good veggies) and used his laboratory space (and assistants) to produce some very fine (very alcoholic) wine. My cousin Kristin McKnight wrote the following in 2003 to commemorate some of our early wine memories.

Poppy’s Wine

Down in his basement he did brew
That muscadine wine with a taste so true

Oh Oh that muscadine wine
Oh Oh made me feel so fine

Made with grapes on the government’s tab
We all know what you were doing in that lab

Oh Oh drinkin that muscadine wine
Oh Oh a great way to past the time

Well you drink with young ones, you drink it with old
No matter what your age the effects are ten-fold

If you were there in the early years, you get what I’m preaching
Because then it was in abundance and forever we were reaching

Oh Oh for that bottle of muscadine wine
Oh Oh hope I don’t get outta line

But who cares … Cuz I’m drinking that muscadine wine

The taste was so sweet, a nectar so fine,
It could only be … Poppy’s Wine!

— Kristin McKnight ‘03

I used to love being at his home in Griffin, Georgia. A classic ranch style house. He always kept a golf-cart for riding around his neighborhood or to the grocery store right down the street. The grandkids, myself included, used to wear that thing out whistling around the yard and street (sometimes on two wheels..). I’m surprised in hindsight we never got seriously injured. The only thing we walked away with (generally) was a lot of itching due to aging fiberglass frames.

His basement was a place I spent a lot of my time. It was filled with the artifacts of his travels, his hobbies (small boat replica’s, collecting, etc), his experiments, his slide reels and more. I could spend hours in a corner just exploring and thinking. Open another door, dig through another cubby, look through another volume of notes, it was amazing stuff.

He also collected wine labels which he would affix to the wall. As we came of age we would send him special labels from our own travels. The collection started small but over the years it grew to encompass two walls. I wish I had my own collection of pictures of this but my memory will have to serve.

Pensacola - 041406 - 71

While as he got older he faced more struggles and challenges than his body could keep up with I will always cherish the memories we had and work on not forgetting them. From the stories he told of being raised in Puerto Rico, to his time in the Navy, multiple birthdays, trips to far flung places. He was a brilliant man and lived in a world of good order. As I wrote this and went through piles of his life and the memories I have of him I cannot see a trace of regret. He was exposed to many facets of the world and seemed to have taken them in with vigor and determination. We should all be so lucky.

I am thankful to the times we had together and sad at the loss of not being able to have my future children know him. My wife tells me it is now my job to bring his experiences through me to our children. I think I can do that. At a family wedding a year or so ago the groom spoke of how we were where we were because of those that came before us. As I get older I see more of the collection of who I am by those who have been around me and am thankful for their contributed wisdom.

To my dear dear grandfather, Pop, I love you, I will miss you.

Obituary

DR. HONORICO “RIC” CIORDIA
1920 - 2008

Dr. H. “Ric” Ciordia, 87, of Pensacola, FL, and formerly of Griffin, GA, died January 6, 2008. Dr. Ciordia was born in Vega Baja, Puerto Rico. Survivors include his wife, Polly Pearson Ciordia; children, Dr. Richard H. (Page) Ciordia, of Pensacola, FL, and Cynthia (John) McKnight of St. Simons Island, GA. He was “Poppy” to his six grandchildren and two great-grandsons: Kristin McKnight of Edwards, CO; Melissa (Mike) Brant of Dublin, CA; Dr. David Johnson of Salisbury, MD; Elizabeth Johnson, Andy (Robin) Ciordia, and Catherine Ciordia, of Charlotte, NC; Cameron Lott of Dublin, CA; and Joey Ryan of Charlotte, NC.

He received his BA, MS and PhD degrees in Zoology from the University of Tennessee. He obtained a research grant from the U.S. Atomic Energy Commission in 1953 to study the effects of radiation on parasites and on parasitized animals. For 31 years he served as a Veterinary Parasitologist for the Agricultural Research Service, U.S.D.A., Georgia Experiment Station, Griffin, GA until his retirement in 1986. During his tenure there, he served as Adjunct Professor of Parasitology and as Professor Emeritus at The University of Georgia. He was the author of numerous scientific publications in his field. In 1997 he was honored by the American Association of Veterinary Parasitologists with the Distinguished Service Award in appreciation for outstanding service to the advancement of veterinary parasitology..

He was a veteran of World War II, serving in the U.S. Navy. He was a member of the Elks Club of Griffin and a volunteer at the Medical Center Clinic in Pensacola.

In lieu of flowers, please make donations to support his interests in education and classical music. Contributions may be made to: Arch Foundation, UGA Griffin Campus, 1109 Experiment Street, Griffin, GA 30223 or Friends of the Saenger, Attn: Renovation, P.O. Box 13666, Pensacola, FL 32591.

Visitation will be held from 5:00 to 6:00 p.m. on Wednesday, January 9, 2008 at Harper-Morris Memorial Chapel in Pensacola with memorial service to begin at 6:00 p.m. A graveside service will be held at Westwood Gardens, Griffin, GA at 2:00 p.m. on Saturday, Jan. 12, 2008.

The family of Honorico Ciordia wishes to give special thanks to the staff of Carpenter’s Creek Community, West Florida Hospital, The Haven, and Covenant Hospice for their compassion, kindness, and especially their appreciation of Ric’s humor. He could make everyone smile and laugh. First Today!

Reflections of a Newbie Skydiver

// December 18th, 2006 // 1 Comment » // Life Happens, Points In Time, Skydiving


Over the past few months everyone around me knows I’ve taken up sky diving. It has been an honor and privilege to work with the people at [Skydive Carolina](http://www.skydivecarolina.com). As well as have a wife that has been beside me the whole way supporting my actions. This year has been full of rare moments and the guys and gals down in Chester have included Robin and I deep into their family and it gives me warm tinglies every time I think about them.

Saturday, Dec. 16th, I finished my first phase of the Advanced Free Fall course with Joey Freeman at my graduation E-2 jump. I then followed it up a few hours later with my first solo jump. Under my own plan and guidance I launched from the Twin Otter at [13,540ft](http://www.flickr.com/photos/ciordia/326124621/ “Freefall Report”) above ground and had the time of my life. With no coach or external testing source by me I unleashed all that I had been taught. Flipping fore and back, twisting, spinning, and all the while aware of where I was, even who was around me. Until the time came to fatefully pull my chute and guide myself into the dropzone without assistance. You want to talk about empowering? This was it. My friend and instructor Pete said at the Skydive Christmas party that in this world where globally a lot of our choice is out of our control when you exit that aircraft it’s all about you. No one else is going to take care of you except you. Can you imagine the strength one can garner from taking challenges like this? Are you up to the challenge?

What does one get from this type of challenge? What do you take home at the end of the day?
* The power of self.
* The definitive knowledge that you can tackle any obstacles in your path.
* Absolutely understanding that no one can have power over you.

You learn and experience these things through a good plan, smiling, deep laughter, discipline, execution, and repeating to do things the right way.

In a world surrounded by mediocrity it’s not hard to put the right foot forward and excel. It’s a learned behavior. The trick is most people have a lot of learned negative or limiting beliefs which they get trapped in. What’s worse is a large percentage of those people then overlay those beliefs on those around them thus trapping good souls and in time corrupting them.

If you’ve been looking for a way to start something new. To break free of the quicksand of life, I highly suggest taking a tandem sky dive or enrolling in your local AFF program. Learn to take back control, to stop feeding those emotional vampires in your world through the power of trust in yourself.

I’ve got a long road ahead of me and I know not where it is going. However, I will continue my trek through new goals finding myself surrounded by the remarkable.

Next stop in sky diving is my class ‘A’ license which requires 25 jumps and another 3 categories of skill tests then on to my ‘B’ license which will allow for beach dives.

Thanks to all those who follow and send good cheer. You all are awesome!

-a